I can't imagine you have brought me to the crossroads of my life when I'm at the threshold of puberty. I'm still learning to deal with my issues when you have dealt me such a huge card in life.
I need family Dad. I like the security of seeing you and mom and my little sister, Nidhi, around. The sound of laughter is what I look forward to. I'm not ready to deal with an issue of this magnitude.
You are my hero. My 'Go to' man. How can you be like this? How could you do this to me? To us?
And now I hear you telling this to your Dad! I mean, are you telling him this fact now because he cannot respond to you? Because he is incapacitated? Is that how you are parading your so called manhood?
I'm ashamed of you Dad. I don't know how to react? I can't bear the thought of seeing our family fall apart.
Have you thought of mom? Of Nidhi? How are you going to explain this to her? And how is she going to make sense of this all? She is so little!
Dad, you have just torn me apart and I'm not liking it one bit. A few months later... Dear Dad
I'm sorry for behaving badly with you when you broke the news to me. These past seven months have not been easy on me and I know that you have had your share of difficult moments after you told me your secret. I've had time to dwell on your confession.
And you know what dad? I'd like to say sorry for behaving like an ass.
I know the decision you took was not easy on you. You would have died a thousand deaths just deciding that this was the right thing to do for your family. I know now how it would have pained you to make a family decision like this. It was for our collective good even though it would have broken you on the inside into a thousand pieces.
I have come to accept the fact of your truth and I love you for that. You are honest and caring and loving and protective--this is what I would want to be to my kids.
Thanks Dad for helping me tell Natasha how I feel about her. Gosh! That night at the girls hostel... me on top of the ladder! Will I ever forget that? And then the principal calling us and reprimanding you. And that look on her face when I told her your truth!
Tell me Dad, do you think she had the hots for you? I'm sure she did!
We may not be a perfect family anymore dad, but I know I have the perfect Dad! No one will love like you do.
Thanks Dad and sorry once again for reacting badly to your confession. I know the strength you would have had to draw on just to confess to me.
I will always love you for that.
Your son Shivam PS:
Thank you Tanuj Bhramar for this wonderful journey on celluloid. You have done a marvelous job.
Thank you Arvind Swamy, Himanshu Sharma and Ekavali Khanna; all of you deserve kudos for bringing alive such wonderful, genuine characters on screen.