Sushant Singh Rajput: Dil Bechara… Kisse Hara?


Remembering the Sushant Singh Rajput, I know and met in flesh & blood.

Bazicha-e-atfal hai duniya mere aage, hota hai shab-o-roz tamasha mere aage, ik khel hai aurang-e-sulaimman mere nazdik, ik baat hai ejaz-e-masiha ha mere aage (rough translation: the world seems like a playground where I see people engaged in juvenile/child’s play from dawn to dusk, the king’s fabulous rule seems like an ‘act’ and further, the talk of miracles of the messiah, should I care…).

A month and eight days after I gear up myself to write on Sushant Singh Rajput. The ‘star’ I knew professionally in my limited capacity as a film journalist who actually in my opinion was a much better ‘actor’, philosopher. He cherished looking at those real stars in the galaxy through his telescope (wish I had that telescope and continued watching him over there).

You may find it surprising why it took so much time and why quotes from Mirza Ghalib’s Bazeecha-e-Atfal is used here. But this is what is happening since his demise. It’s utterly disappointing and sad that the most shocking and unfortunate demise of a talent like Sushant Singh Rajput has turned into a blame game from both ends. The real issue is side-lined and personal agendas have taken over.

Late Sushant Singh Rajput with dreams to be a star

It was not the time for Sushant Singh Rajput to leave. We all deserved more and much more of him. He deserved more and much more…

Before lighting the torch for the ongoing #JusticeforSushant movement (which I really want to be delivered with full honesty), I will first light the candle and pray for his eternal peace.

It was five years ago during the mid of March 2015, I met him for the first time at YRF studios for my one-on-one for Detective Byomkesh Bakshy, surprisingly this experiment by Dibakar Banerjee under YRF banner is not that much talked about.


A young, very confident and handsome man from Bihar was waiting in that room and the best part of the interview was that Sushant Singh was extremely happy about the experimental period Indian detective spy saga which had a unique infusion of jazz, funk, pop, rock elements in the narrative. “Am glad to be a part of this changing Bollywood”, he said and that became my headline.

He further elaborated on detective series he followed since childhood and his study materials for playing the dhoti clad Bengali detective and it ranged from Rajit Kapur’s Byomkesh, Pankaj Kapur’s Karamchand, Vijay Anand’s Tehikikat, Agatha Christie novels, Sherlok Holmes of the 1940’s, 50’s, Robert Downey Jr.’s Sherlok Holmes, British detective novels all of them.

Sushant Singh Rajput came 7th in the all India ranking of Delhi College of Engineering Entrance Examination in 2003. A gifted dancer and of course a brilliant actor, it was his dream his passion to be a movie star since the age of 10. He idolised Shah Rukh Khan and like King Khan, was a favourite amongst the female folks.


Sushant wanted to be a star and there is no harm, the icon for the icons Amitabh Bachchan wanted to be a star like Rajesh Khanna.

But there was a huge difference between a talent like Sushant coming from a small town and having dreams to be a star. Sushant was ambitious and he carried a rare flair of talent, vision and wisdom with him.

Unfortunately, things didn’t go his way. Like the said sequel of Detective Byomkesh Bakshy which he confirmed with a fan on social media didn’t get materialised. Mega projects like Paani, the space movie for which he visited Nasa didn’t see the light.

A twitterati’s post for SSR

The shocking and unfortunate demise of Sushant Singh Rajput has triggered a debate on nepotism.

In my humble opinion nepotism prevails in every field and film industry is not an exception.

But look at those who are our legends starting with the pioneer Dada Saheb Phalke to Sorab Modi to Prithviraj Kapoor, Raj Kapoor (though son of Prithviraj Kapoor am told that he started from scratch), Satyajit Ray, Guru Dutt, Dev Sahab, K. L. Sehagal, Amitabh Bachchan, Dilip Kumar, Dharmendra, Kamal Haasan, Mammootty, Rajesh Khanna, Jeetendra, Naseerudin Shah, Om Puri, Mithun Chakraborty, Mohanlal, Akshay Kumar, Shah Rukh Khan, Rajkummar Rao, Ayushman Khurana, Kangana Ranaut, Priyanka Chopra, Sridevi, Hema Malini, Madhuri Dixit… the list will go on and on.

I think people are getting confused between power play and nepotism.

A person’s desire to pass his legacy to his children is a human tendency and it will exist till time last; it will always be your calibre, talent that will make the difference.

But it should be limited in giving the initial platform and not entire career management.

Surprisingly a question on nepotism asked by Karan Johar to Manoj Bajpayee which is on record is a perfect example. I was highly impressed by the response given by Manoj Bajpayee. He agreed that nepotism will prevail, and a parent will try to pass his/her legacy to their children but how can that stop anyone from dreaming.

Sushant Singh Rajput had a dream, and nobody has the right to stop someone from dreaming.

The matter is under investigation and it will be not be proper to comment on it but the truth should be out.

Stars are not people dropping from heaven on a shining night when the moon is in its complete element.

Stars are people like us. They are artiste much better than all of us. So, we love them support them and make them rule our heart.

People make stars and it’s our blind hero-worship that doesn’t care about alleged misdeeds of a ‘star’ like Salman Khan who can walk away with anything.

We should be responsible in choosing our netas/leader/member of parliament then why not stars.

And am sure if a survey is done to find the conversion rate of trollers into actual cinegoers, the result will be highly disappointing.

The alleged power play needs to be probed and that is the major issue and it’s happening everywhere, politics, media and yes of course social media which is getting uglier by the day.

A talent like Sushant Singh should be remembered and kept ‘alive’ by appreciating and talking about his good work not by digging out old skeletons for personal agenda and killing him every day after his death. Truth will prevail, we should hail whatever Sushant was able to achieve and never give up on our dreams.

Sushant Singh Rajput’s Dil Bechara based on John Green’s 2012 novel ‘The Fault in Our Stars’ will release tomorrow at 7:30 p.m. in India on Disney Hotstar. The directorial debut of ace casting director Mukesh Chhabra, the movie also stars Saif Ali Khan and Sanjana Sanghi. A Hollywood tearjerker starring Shailene Woodley and Ansel Elgort is already made by Josh Boone.

It will be an emotionally charged moment for many but that’s what life is. There is a dialogue in the Hollywood version of ‘The Fault in Our Stars’, which goes like, “funerals are not for the dead, they are for those alive’.

People like Sushant Singh Rajput never die, one day they decide to ‘remain’ forever. Sushant Singh Rajput: Dil Bechara… kya apne sapno se haara?…